So, it's Mary's birthday today and I went with her and Julia to Blue Flame in Raleigh where she got that red shading around her trebe clef (I paid, Happy Birthday). I was going to get my lip post replaced with a ring and he said it wouldn't be good and then he didn't have any shorter posts because the one I have in now is way too long and annoying. I keep catching my teeth on the inside and it doesn't lay flat on the outside. Whatever, Billy said to come back in on Wednesday and check with them for a shorter post. Then I was thinking about getting my first tattoo. I had the design picked out and everthing but after paying for Mary's I'm kind of broke. Good thing I have those two paychecks from Pargo's that I've yet to cash. And my final paycheck is coming in the mail soon from them. Woot.

Still haven't found a job or a place to stay in Greensboro. Still want to move back to Winchester. Hopefully I'll get over it soon.

Family Force 5 is playing in Greensboro this Friday. Anyone wanna come with me? It's gonna be hott. I don't think Mary would come because they're not hard enough for her or some other bull. Haha. Whatever, they're super funny. Awesome stage presence. Catchy beats. Hurray. I just don't want to go alone...

Drag show tomorrow night?

There's a bit of Garbo in her?

I've been thinking about being baptized. I dunno. I haven't really found the right church yet. I'm quite partial to the University Methodist Church on Franklin St. Who knows.

The new Tic Tac commercial with the two people sitting on a bench together disturbs me.

To tattoo or not to tattoo? Or pierce again. Mary's birthday is this Saturday and I think I'm going to take her to Blue Flame in Raleigh and pay for her to get that red shading done on her treble clef that she wanted to get done the last time we were there (also for my lip piercing) but she didn't have enough cash on her at the moment. So if I take her there for that of course I'm going to become intoxicated with all the pretty pictures and shiny objects in the display case so I might just decide to get something done too.

I've been searching for a place to live with Meshell in Gboro. And this shit is tough. I kind of hate it. I want to just give up and move back to Winchester. That's it, Lauren, take the easy way out. Well I'm sure it would be kind of difficult to move all that shit back to Virginia, but still, I think you know what I mean.

I'm about ready to kill my dogs right now. Actually just Lugar. What an asshole.

Well I've left Winchester for good. I mean, I'll come back and visit. Duh. But I no longer live there and I certainly no longer go to school there. My last night at Pargo's was bitter sweet. Went over to Shayna's afterwards and had I think a little too much fun. (Jamison!!) Haha. Whatever, I don't work with those nerds anymore. Score! Just kidding guys. I wish I could go back. This is the first Saturday night I haven't worked there in almost 7 months. Except for all those times I asked off for various reasons. But you get what I'm trying to say here. Damn.

My final night in town was last night. It sucked so bad. I wanted to cry my fucking eyes out but we all know that (according my my family at least) crying is a sign of weakness. W/e. I did my own share today on the trip back down. I left Greg's at 6am and got back into the Hill around 11am. Couldn't fall asleep until maybe 2 or 3pm which is weird because I certainly almost fell asleep on the road a few times. Eek. I've kind of drowned all my thoughts into a torrent of metal today. Screaming is pretty and a form of art, I don't care what those other fuckers say.

I don't know how strong I can be now without all my people from Winchester backing me up. Seriously. I've noted some extreme changes in myself since being with them ( and I don't mean the hott hair and new piercings). My point of view has changed and I've been through some tough times. I'm not quite there yet but Sheena has helped me to open up a little bit more about my feelings. It's hard though. Now that she's not with me I don't know if I'll be able to go any further. What's funny is almost everyone is leaving Winchester soon. Jenn is moving to Kernersville (half hour from Greensboro yay!!), Shayna, Heather, and Ryan are all moving to NC too (they're looking into Wilmington), Greg, Larry, and Lindsay are all moving to Arizona together in January. That's kind of crushing. I fucking hate that word by the way. And fuck guys for fucking with my head. Even though I know it's not his fault, nor did he do it on purpose. Whatever. Sheena would tell me to stop being so emo. Haha. Awesome.

I need to call my Greensboro roommate tomorrow so we can go apartment shopping soon. I was supposed to call her today. Or actually yesterday. My bad.

I think I'll shave my legs tomorrow. Lovely. I need a haircut and a dye job. Heck yes.

Yeah, Jade is the one with the awesome hair. Bleached and shit. That's the cut I want. Mary says I could pull it off. Megan says no way.

I'm trying to get my friend Megan to cut my hair a certain way and she's saying that it won't look right and blah blah blah. I don't care. I fucking want this cut. It probably won't look right and I'll regret it but for now I'm determined. It's soooo hott. Maybe that's why it'll look bad on me. Because I'm not. Oh well. I still want it!!!


Jade is too beautiful

I was up against the barriers for some of the most amazing sets ever!!!

Senses Fail
Underoath
Anit Flag
Thursday
A.F.I.

gahhh!!!!

I also saw a lot of other really good bands as I was walking around. Got a lot of free swag too. Heck yess.

So the other night I watched Greg's dog, Jamison, spluge all over his apartment. Kinda gross. He humped Greg's leg 13 times before he finally blew his wad. Hahahaha.

I'm going to see Warped Tour tomorrow with Mary and Julia. I'm kinda pissed off that From First to Last isn't playing anymore. Their singer is sick. What's up with bands having sick singers whenever I go to see them? Alesana, Scapegoat, and now From First to Last. Argh. I also could've sworn that Atreyu was going to be there but I just checked the website and no. Oh well. There will be lots of other great bands there like Thursday, Saves the Day, Catch 22, and Armor for Sleep. I'm excited.